After the 21st of March 2014

If you checked the previous post of beautiful day on 21st of March 2014, this is what followed it.
About the task which I gave that day I got peer feedback,
from movers point of view:

• feeling of connection with the partner
• physical exchange that became a duet
• easy to give up and let go of rolls
• taking a different role than usually in life
• longing someone to take you 
• enough even a small impulse to react 

from leaders:

• interesting to explore 
• building up a choreography

in general:

• adequate sound - taking, inspiring 
• great solution for selecting the roles - tapping on the shoulder.

My personal feedback contains of things that I was working on while my peers where working on the task.
Few things that I was considering:

• trial for combining patters
• not giving too much information, but giving enough
• letting go of my own expectations of how exercise should look like  
• multitasking - in the same time managing music in combination of giving enough information for task as well as observing class.

two steps back and one forward

The end of the final year of my dance studies is approaching, and I am catching myself doing some weird mind dancing with performed choreography titled 'two steps back and one forward'. This involves looking back at things I have learned and gained as well as what did not. And suddenly it seems that I am having balance with minus.
Would it be just me being anxious about the future or it is so common and popular syndrome of pre-graduation?
However, there are many jobs to be done before I can call myself graduate. In preparation to my Final Major Project, I am reminded about one of the readings given in class 'A Sense of Place: Reflection on the Role of Environment in Dance Movement Therapy' by Sandra Reeve where she talks about 'embodied' living referring on Halprin:
'Embodied - means to feel oneself through bodily felt responses in the moment...ultimately the embodied life would be one in which the physical body, feelings and mind are being expressed creatively in congruence with each other and with the changing nature of reality'.
In relation to this quote and some recent discussion with my Final Major Project tutor I have a question ( Voila! No surprises!) : How to stay embodied (including everything mentioned above) and tuned in into the ever changing reality and not get into the certain state of performing?

Find a place to be..to hear..to see..to feel

Literature isn't my strength, especially poetry and especially in english.
However, some lines came to me while doing improvisation task today.
There I was sitting on the bench of a green spot in the middle between a car park and a high way, trying to SEE (with capital letters to express how hard I was trying to be involve it the process).
And then picture turned into words:

Stillness versus Run.
Me here in the sun.
I am  because I can.
And even when it isn't fun,
Can job be ever done?

How to be a fish in the sea?

I guess this post will be one of the  bad day posts as I promised in one of the previous posts in the beginning of this term.
I am having some inner battle or maybe even few of them since couple weeks already. It keeps me busy and doesn't allow to get some university related tasks done nor enjoy time of not doing them. Every thought seems to be locked away from me. And I am not able to find the right key to unchain it. So, they keep banging against their cages and making unbearable noise in my head. It makes me deaf from inside and outside leaving me paralysed and wishing only one - to be a fish in the sea.
Yesterday during or in between one of the battles I found an answer that I am going to practice deliberately. I am going to stop this hard thinking and will switch to  the soft thinking (terms taken from chapter of G.Claxton  book 'Wise Up: The Challenge of Lifelong Learning'.) .
I am going to follow Rudyard Kipling suggestion : ' When your Daemon is in charge, do not try to think consciously. Drift; wait; obey.'
I am giving my serried monsters freedom to dive in the waters of mind and swim freely like a fish :)

Please, share your experiences and strategies  how you deal with your inner voices and feeling of being overloaded.


Reference
Claxton G (1999). Wise Up: The Challenge of Lifelong Learning. N.Y.: Bloomsbury
Available online from> http://site.ebrary.com/lib/coventry/docDetail.action?docID=10250934

Walking Piece

Here we working on building up speed with movements and words as well as keeping attention on objects inside and outside space.
Please, give me Your feedback after watching this video.